I am

I'm afraid

Of what the future may bring

Of what my future would be

I'm not ready

To take care of so many things

To take care of somebody else but me

I'm lost

Of what I should be doing

Of where I should be going

I know

I want to be happy

I want me and a family

Resentment

I wish I could believe youThen I'll be alrightBut now everything they told meReally don't apply

To the way I feel insideLoving you was easy once upon a timeBut now my suspicions of you are multiplyingAnd it's all because you lied

I only give you a hard time'Cause I can't go on and pretend likeI haven't tried to forgive thisBut I'm much too full of resentment

Just can't seem to get over the way you hurt meDon't know how you gave anotherDidn't mean a thing, noThe very thing you gave to me

I thought I could forgive youAnd I know you've changedAs much as I wanna trust youI know it ain't the sameAnd it's all because you lied

I only give you a hard time'Cause I can't go on and pretend likeI haven't tried to forgive thisBut I'm much too full of resentment

I may never understand whyI'm doing the best that I can, and II tried and I tried to forgive thisAnd I'm much too full of resentment

I'll always remember feelingLike I was no good
Like I couldn't do it for youAnd your mistress couldAnd it's all because you lied

Loved you more than everMore than my own lifeThe best part of me I gave youYeah, I would sacrificeAnd it's all because you lied

I only give you a hard time'Cause I can't go on and pretend likeI tried and I tried to forgive thisBut I'm damn too full of resentment

I know she was attractiveBut I was here firstBeen riding with you for six yearsWhy did I deserveTo be treated this way by you, you?

I know you're probably thinkingWhat's up with B?I've been crying for too longWhat did you do to me?

I used to be so strongBut now you took my soulI'm crying, can't stop cryingCan't stop crying

You could've told me you wasn't happyI know you didn't want to hurt meLook what you've done to me nowI gotta look at her in her eyesAnd see she's had half of meHow could you lie?

Jangan.

Provokasi fitnah perosak minda,

Minda tercemar aksi durjana,

Durjana merosak iman di dada,

Dada sesak menahan bahana.

Bahana pentingkan diri sendiri,

Sendiri menjual maruah dan akhlak,

Akhlak merudum niat pun lari,

Lari mengelak balasannya kelak.

Kelak kau terima hasil usahamu,

Usahamu yang tiada membawa manfaat,

Manfaat kejayaan yang tiada bertemu,

Bertemu amalmu di hari akhirat.

Sudah.

Dikejutkan ku lagi,

Nada sinis tak terperi,

Tentang niat kau yang berbagi,

Tentang hilang petimbangan diri.

Kau kini mudah melatah,

Bila ditegur bila dicegah,

Jangan biar maruah diratah,

Jangan hanya dibilang megah.

Kau kini mudah lupa,

Pernah disebut pernah dikata,

Sudahlah lupa kini kau alpa,

Sudahlah miskin berangan berharta.

Kini semakin bodoh kau jadi,

Salahkan cerita direka dicipta,

Itulah amal kau bawa semadi,

Itulah pesan buat ku, buat kau…buat kita.

Kini kita punya masa,

Mengubah khilaf sembunyi dan nyata,

Perbetulkan semua sebelum binasa,

Perbetulkan khilaf telinga, mulut dan mata.

Melayu

Kau Melayu, Aku Melayu.
Kau menipu, Aku tertipu.

Aku Melayu, Kau Melayu.
Kini kumalu, hinanya akhlakmu.

Kau Melayu, Aku Melayu.
Kau menyatu, Aku bersatu.

Aku Melayu, Kau Melayu.
Bersihkan namamu, Sucikan jiwamu.

- Penghujung April. Selasa. 9.36pagi

Nukilan Hati

Terkadang aku tak sedar,

Terkadang aku tak dengar, 

Terkadang aku tak endah, 

Kehidupan yang begitu indah.

Ku tahu Dia mampu, 

Ku tahu Dia tahu, 

Ku tahu Dia penentu, 

Maju mundur masa depanku.

Pernah juga aku tersasar, 

Pernah juga aku tersadar, 

Pernah juga aku terdampar, 

Diuji diduga berhati gusar.

Biarkan waktu merakam masa, 

Biarkan bunyi merakam suara,

Biarkan hati merakam rasa, 

Luahan hati Si Insan Biasa.

Sakit Pedih telah kurasa, 

Penat Lelah telah kuterima, 

Pahit Perit kutelankan jua, 

Menyambung hayat kurnia oleh-Nya.

Bersuara kembali

Terimanya aku bukan dibayar, 

Terima dengan adanya fakta.

Tolaknya aku bukan dipaksa, 

Tolak dengan ilmu didada.

Memilihnya aku bukan membuta, 

Memilih dengan harapan yang nyata.

Majunya kita bukan kerana harta, 

Majunya dengan janji dikota.

Ralit, leka, terlalai, terlena,

Gentar, resah, risau, gelisah,

Maju, berkembang, mara, membara, 

Muafakat, bersatu, sepakat, sepadu.