tanda soal

lihat?

kenapa kita melihat?

kenapa kita terlihat?

kenapa lihat itu perlu?

dengar?

kenapa kita mendengar?

kenapa kita terdengar?

kenapa dengar itu perlu?

rasa?

apa itu rasa?

kenapa rasa itu ada?

kenapa kita merasa?

kenapa kita terasa?

lihat dengar dan rasa,

tiga perbuatan yang sering kita lakukan,

tapi kenapa ia perlu?

kenapa kita dikurniakan?

kenapa Dia mengurniakan?

kenapa kita bertanya?

kenapa kita berfikir?

kenapa kita meragui?

kenapa perlunya kenapa?

kenapa?

AKU

Aku,

hanya insan biasa,

tanpa Dia aku lelah,

tanpa cinta aku lemah,

tanpa uwang aku resah.

Aku,

sang pengembara di dunia,

sedar akan siapa aku,

sedar akan kelemahanku,

sedar akan kebolehanku.

Aku,

hanya mampu berkata,

mungkin tidak sebagus mana,

mungkin tidak didengar siapa,

mungkin hanya ayat semata.

Aku,

sering bersalah pada semua,

maafkan aku wahai sang cinta,

maafkan aku Tuhan yang Esa,

maafkan aku rakan keluarga..

Bisu

kadang kita lupa siapa kita,

kadang kita tak endah darjat kita,

kadang kita lalai akan perbuatan kita,

yang mana ia bakal kan membinasa.

aku sujud akur padamu,

Tuhan esa maha berkuasa,

kumohon diriku ini sentiasa,

kau berikan kehidupan penuh bermakna.

lihat, dengar dan cuba rasa,

apalah hidup tanpa cinta,

kadang tak perlu disebut dikata,

cukuplah dengan perbuatan semata.

jika kau jatuh tak mampu berdiri,

jangan kau rasa dihina dicaci,

masih ada yang punya hati,

akan kau jumpa jika kau mencari.

rakan, sahabat, kawan dan teman,

peneman bicara pendengar setia,

namun tiada yang kekal di dunia,

kembalilah semua pada yang Esa.

jika hilangnya sesuatu berharga,

pasti kan jua ada gantinya,

mungkin tak bagus seindah asalnya,

itulah terbaik daripadaNya.

Eiduladha

raya was okay..i went for the eid's prayer at Bukit Indah this morning. then around 9am we shoot off to nenek's at Dato' Keramat. yup, that's where my "hometown" is. home + town. hahha. nenek prepared ayam masak merah, sambal sotong, kuah kacang and nasi impit. while my fam brought soto, bread pudding and fried popia. all in all, it was an ok raya day. surprisingly, there was only my family, nenek, cik ali (mom's brother), and 4 of my czns. where are all the others??? then again, whatever. at least we made nenek happy. owh, nenek, ayam masak merah and kuah kacang was SUPERB!!! hehe.

*the weather was damn hot that i had to change into a more comfortable wear than my baju melayu.

after staying at nenek's for quite a while, me, iqa, mama n abah went to Nek Leha's and Tok Husin's. again, makan. we had, ketupat palas, lontong, sambal udang, the famous Rendang Limpa and kuah lodeh. as usual, Nek Leha's cooking left us feeling very satisfied. the eating doesn't stop till she brought out her kuih Lopes (idk how to spell tho). boleh la Nek Leha...sdap jugak. haha.

the clock struck 12..

Abah: call dorg sroh siap. we're leaving. nk tros g rumah Aunty Zaini..

me: nk dorg dtg sni dlu ke blek rumah nenek dlu?

Abah: tros la. nak patah blek buat pe?

me: ok, mane la tau.

5 mins later...

Abah: da bgtau dorg?

me: dah...tgh siap la tu..

Abah: then da gerak blom?

me: ntah la...mane la tau...da la kot..

mama: blek rumah nenek jap...nk antar all this food (Nek Leha packed some for nenek)

me: pulak? ha, jom la...kang lambat pulak...(being sarcastic)

so, after salam2 we went back to nenek's and drive off to Kota Kemuning. as usual the kids will follow Abah's and us adults in another car. we had a blast. we laughed just about everything. hahha. gle punye sisters. haha

so finally, after like making gazillion u-turns, we reached Auntie Zaini's and Uncle Suhaimi's cool house. there was the auntie and uncle, my other auntie and her friend, with her two kids. salam everybody and the gents went off for Friday prayer...

so, the ladies ate first. as when we came back..we ate and this anak kawan my auntie started to borak2 with me. his name was johan..

johan: so, how old r u?

me: u think?

johan: 18? 19?

me: haha. i'm 21 for god's sake...hahah

johan: owh, ok...(and he gave me a smirk..hahha)

do i look that young till he cant see my 21 year old-ness...hahha. wtever, he was 17, so we talked about spm, boarding school and uni life. he's a good kid and he even call me abang w/o making fun of it. Yux but whatever...i feel old and mature already. LOL!

so, in the end, he went home. i continue chatting with my little Nur Sara (auntie Zaini's daughter) and the others. watch tv, ate chocs and almost fell asleep. hahah.

then, uncle Hussein came. he's abah's older brother. so, borak with uncle n all an around 5pm, we shoot off back to KL.

so that is all..what an "interesting" day of mine~

till then. CIAO!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA

Aku, Gua dan Lu

sebenarnya, aku masih tak mengerti apa perhubungan dia dan dia. siapa dia kepada dia? adakah dia berjalin mesra dengan dia atau sekadar kawan kepada dia? menurut sang pencinta, dia telah melukakan hati sang pencinta. seolah2, sang pencinta mempunyai hubungan asmara bersama dia. aku tidak percaya. setahu aku, dia sememangnya setia dengan diriku. hubungan mereka berdua tak lebih dari sekadar rakan untuk berbasa basi sahaja. mungkin keakraban mereka membuat sang pencinta terasa seperti ada secebis harapan untuk perhubungan mereka itu pergi lebih jauh. malangnya, semakin jauh, perhubungan itu "pergi".

aku tidak marah malah kasihan. sang pencinta merupakan seorang yang baik. dari sudut pandanganku, sang pencinta mungkin pernah diberi kata2 manis daripada dia yang mengubah pandangan sang pencinta terhadap dia. benarkah dia? aku bukan tidak percaya, namun apakah manusia tidak pernah berdosa? aku tertanya.

kepada sang pencinta, mungkin aku bersalah di dalam hal ini. kehadiranku menjauhkan kau dari dia. dulu, aku amat benci akan keakraban kau dan dia. namun, setelah aku melihat kau hanya kawan, aku percaya. kemudian, kau berubah. aku bingung. apakah kau sebenarnya hanya ingin berkawan atau lebih. ke mana perginya kata "hormat" kau kepada dia? kata kau, kau hormat dengan keputusannya. namun...? aku faham. tatkala kau sedang asyik bermain kata dan bermesra durja, aku tiba dan merampas takhta yang sepatutnya kau terima. namun, itu hak dia. dan kami pernah bersama lebih lama dari kau mengenali dia wahai sang pencinta. fahamilah keadaannya.

tujuan aku menulis bukan untuk menyakitkan hati dia. aku mengerti sakitnya dia. aku mengerti betapa sengsaranya dia. namun dia tak perlu menjauhkan diri dari dia. dia masih boleh berkawan. berbasa basi. bermesra durja. bermain kata. namun hanya sekadar kawan walaupun begitu akrab. aku tidak pernah melarang dia bersahabat bersama dia. namun, dia mengkhianati kepercayaanku terhadap dirinya. dia membuang diriku, dia memalingkan dirinya sendiri daripada dia. kau yang taburkan racun ke dalam kehidupanmu sendiri. kuharap dia dan dia masih boleh berkawan. aku boleh menerima perubahan. cuma, harapanku, dia akan tetap pendirian menjadi rakan kepada dia. kerana dia kini dan selamanya milik hatiku. salam.

kepada dia yang kusayang, aku percaya kau wanita yang baik. mungkin kebaikan itu disalah tafsir oleh dia. maafkan aku sekiranya ada segenggam huruf atau sebaris kata yang membuatkan kau terasa. kau tidak salah dalam hal ini. tapi mungkin kata2 mu itu bermain dusta. jangan kau fikirkan lagi sayang. perkara kini sudah terjadi. biarlah dia bermasam muka. mungkin hati masih terluka. mungkin dirinya kan terasa lali. dan persahabatn kau akan kembali.

kepada sang pencinta. fahami siapa kau kepada dia. bagaimana kau dan dia bersmesra. apa kau dan dia berbeza. apa kau dan dia sama. dan pabila kau fahami semua ini, kau dan dia pasti ternyata, boleh menerima segala fakta. hidup bukan lapangan neraka, cuma manusia bingung sentiasa.

--- dari hati yang memahami kisah AKU, GUA DAN LU...

Ke Pasar Pagi

seawal 6.30pagi aku dikejutkan oleh bapak ku..

abah: da semayang blom?
aku: hmm, jap...
abah: kejap2 ape? bangun cepat, then nk g pasar..
aku: hah? ala...

abah memberikan pandangan yang sentiasa kufahami maksudnya..its the "dude-u-aint-got-no-choice stare"..hahha

ini lah gambaran di pasar yang sempat ku ambil...

Sang Penyembelih ayam

Si mangsa penyembelihan

Toko Sayur Segar

Segar dari ladang

Pisang..(no other caption..haha)

i AM thankful for...:

the times i felt so mad and wanted to scold you,
because that means i love you and want you for just me and only me,

the times you get upset when i care less about you and then left me not knowing what to do,
because it means that i am needed in this life..by you,

the kusut-ness up in my mind when i think about the problems we had,
because that means i still have my brain..to think about US,

having to text, to call and to talk to you ALL THE TIME,
because it means i have a person to love and care to spend time with me everyday so i wont get bored and lonely,

the times u sound i dgn kata2 yang agak pedas,
because it means i can hear..to your lovely words later,
the never ending fights we had that tear our hearts into pieces,
because it means that we still have each other,
and finally...for too many text from that one person everyday,
because it means that she still loves me every single day.

if there were to be more problems occur along the way,
i hope we can always work them out...because i need you in my life, and i love you so sooo much,
my sayang,
my Nur Liyana bte Tun Mohd Adib~

Jalan kuasa dua

on 24th nov, we went to melaka for a 2days 1night "vacation". As mom said, "abah da lama x bawak jalan.." so, since abah pon bz bt nk jugak bwk anak2 g jalan, so paling dekat ( 1 1/2 hours drive)..melaka je la kitorg pegi..

stayed at Hotel Johan. hotel yang murah bt tgh2 bandar. 5mins walk to Dataran Pahlawan and Makhota Parade, 10mins to Jonker..

the policy that the hotel has makes it sooo "unique"...(>o<)

right after we checked in, tros g merayap...
muke2 ladies yg ske dpt berjalan..hahha

same goes with the gents..hahha

muke2 penat berjalan dari Jonker...tp x shopping jugak, penat je lebih..haha
later in Dataran Pahlawan, the ladies had to wait as me and abah find what we guys want...
then again, nothing that we like in the Polo Haus...*sigh*

demi mealayn bebudak nih..i followed them into Tortura.
a very cool exhibition..about torture items..hahha

owh, da penat jalan..makan plak kat Johnny's...

johnny's satisfied customer..LOL

to end the day, we went for a rivercruising at the Melaka Rivercruise...
not that fun but ok la...

Food for Thoughts

To fear love is to fear life, and those who fear life are already three parts dead.

Bertrand Russell

You're supposed to trust friends. You have no reason to be his friend? That is part of the pleasure of friendship: trusting without absolute evidence and then being rewarded for that trust.

David Shore, House M.D., Not Cancer, 2008

Go through your phone book, call people and ask then to drive you to the airport. The ones who will drive you are your true friends. The rest aren't bad people; they're just acquaintances.

Jay Leno

Love is everything it's cracked up to be...it really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for.

Erica Ong, O Magazine, February 2004

Sometimes the measure of friendship isn't your ability to not harm but your capacity to forgive the things done too you and ask forgiveness for your own mistakes.

Randy K. Milholland

True love brings up everything - you're allowing a mirror to be held up to you daily.

Jennifer Anniston, O Magazine, February 2004

All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make the better.

Ralph Waldo Emerson

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.

Lao Tzu

Love is an act of endless forgiveness, a tender look which becomes a habit.

Peter Ustinov

TO BLOG or NOT TO BLOG???

That was the question that kept on messing with my mind.

...MAKA DENGAN ITU, SAYA BER-BLOGGING LA...
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